"Do only butterflies die in flames? What about those devoured by the flames within them?"
Emil Cioran (via blackestdespondency)
Anonymous asked: Are you ok after what happened with M ?
Oh stranger, it makes me smile how most of the people close to my heart stopped asking me that long time ago yet strangers are still concerned. You warmed my heart. May the universe kiss your ribs safe.
And, yes, I’m getting there. Very slowly. But some days are kind enough.
I am not fine
Fine is the suckiest word
it never tells the truth
And more than anything I have ever been afraid of I am terrified of lies
How they war the world
How they sound by our tongues
How they bone dry the marrow
How did we get through high school without being taught Dr. King spent two decades having panic attacks?
Jumped at thunder
I think we are all part flight the fight
part run for your life
Part ‘please please please like me’
Part Can’t breathe
Part scared to say you’re scared
Part say it anyway
You panic button collector
You clock of beautiful ticks
You run out the door if you need to
You flock to the front row of your own class
You feather everything until you know you can always, always shake like a leaf on my family tree and know you belong here
You belong here and everything you feel is okay
Everything you feel is okay
"I love tattooed women, maybe because they are uncontrollable, they are themselves to the point of drawing symbols of their power on their skin. Talk about owning your own body, being in your body, claiming yourself. I love it. When the world is in an uproar over whether women should have a choice or not when it comes to their own bodies, being tattooed is one of the most visible choices of all."
Margaret Cho (via onehundreddollars)
"There must be something strangely sacred in salt. It is in our tears and in the sea."
Kahlil Gibran, Sea and Foam (via thatkindofwoman)
"I want nothing tonight to hold but you
I keep this pillow it’s such a poor substitute
For a soul, a soul,
For a soul, a soul"
The maccabees - Dinosaurs (via pixelove)
Anonymous asked: what happened between you and M?are you okay?
It’s none of a stranger’s business, if your mind/heart is really concerned, ask me on twitter (@hayat_as) or personally here and I’ll calm your (hopefully kind) curiosity.
And, I will be okay. Hope the day is kind to you.